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I am a wife and mother who also has cystic fibrosis and a mitochondrial disease.

Wednesday, March 18, 2015

Empty Nest?

I haven't updated this blog in a while, but I wanted to come on to update on the current going on. I got a cell phone and with a few apps I have been able to keep track of my "episodes" and I have realized that when my joints hurt my temperature goes up. How weird is that? I plan on discussing it with my doctor at my next appointment.

My daughter left for college in October 2014, and I haven't seen her since December (when I was sick). This may not seem like a long time - but it feels like years have passed. She left in October (the 3rd was the drop off day) and she came home in November for Thanksgiving, she was gone 7 weeks but we went to visit her twice during that time. Then she cam home for Christmas, that time she was gone for 3 weeks. As of today it has been just over 9 weeks, and we haven't had the chance to visit. This weekend we hope to visit, and I can not wait. I miss her so much!! I enjoy spending time with my husband but it feels like a piece of us is missing, and I know he feels the same way. The 3 of us have always been so very close, and I just feel like the whole world is changing. People used to talk about their kids leaving, and they would say how hard it was, and I guess I just always thought it would be different for us. I'm not really sure why though. For 18 years the 3 of us were best friends, and we still are we just don't live together anymore. It's a tough transition for Frank and I.

I have dealt with many different medical issues personally and as a care giver, but this is not something I feel like I can navigate. I am so happy she is out doing her own thing, and I am so very proud of her. I just don't know how I'm going to get through this.